Okay, I'm going to try to blog more!
I have lots of good things to share :)
I've gotten lots of free samples lately, and I will post about those, as well as life in general.
Talk to you soon!

Wee small hours of the morning...

Sometimes things suck. So I didn't get into MSU, and half of me doesn't care, while the other half desperately wants to know what I'm planning on doing with the rest of my life.
It's not that I don't have anything to do, it's just that I don't have anything productive that I -want- to do.
Going to college was a way for me to get back on track, and not waste my days away on facebook. To get out there and have new experiences, expand my knowledge, meet interesting people. A way to remind myself to move and -do- things!
I wish there was a magic motivation pill! Wouldn't that be great? Then I would clean my house, cook and do the dishes, laundry, gardening...I'd love to have a vegetable garden!
I have no idea why I don't do things. Even when I know that I would be happier if I got something (anything) done, I still don't do it. Am I just a glutton for punishment? A spoiled brat? You'd think I'd at least do it for my family, but I just don't...
My Therapist said there's nothing else she can do to help motivate me. At some point you just have to -do it-. That was so depressing ;)
I don't even want to finish my summer class now. What's the point? Never mind college, I don't think it's meant to be. What am I really going to do with a degree in art history anyway? I don't want to be a teacher, I'm not an artist, I can't imagine writing books, and there are no schools for restoration/conservation around here. My husband won't let us move out of state unless our families come with us...so there's really no point.
I guess I'll just have to find more hobbies. Not that we have the money to spend on hobbies. Maybe I'll find another job. I work 3 hours a day at the kids' school, but I could find something for the afternoon I suppose...
*sniffle*
Sorry, I wonder how many times I've used the word "don't" so far...6, not counting that one in quotes. I wish I felt more positive, but it's just not there right now.
I always thought I would do something to help the world. Yes, I KNOW. I have 3 beautiful kids, who I get to raise. I'm sorry all you wonder-mothers out there. It just doesn't feel like enough. My kids are great, and I hope they do great things; but what kind of example do I set, sitting around on the laptop all day long, playing games and chatting with friends? -My- mother was always busy...so maybe it'll work out! My mom was active, I'm not....so maybe it'll rebound, and the kids will be active.
Ugh, anyway. I shouldn't be allowed near a keyboard when I'm depressed. Night/Morning.

Welcome!

Thanks for checking out my new blog!
This is my first real attempt at blogging, so bear with me ;)
So, who am I?
(That's a question I ask myself a lot!)

But the basics are that I'm a 30 year old mother of 3 brilliant and beautiful children. Okay, so, as everyone who has spent time with children knows, there are times when they are neither brilliant nor beautiful. However, I have to block those times out whenever possible, or else I might lock them in a closet or something awful like that when they are driving me nuts! (just kidding, I would never do that...at least I haven't yet)

My view of kids?

They're weird.

Wonderful and creative and snuggly, but weird.
They do weird things, make up weird stories...you just never know what's going to come out of their mouths next!
I personally think it's awesome! I wish we could all hold on to some of our kid-weirdness into adulthood. We'd have a lot more fun that way!

So, more about me:
I'm hoping to go back to college this fall. I'm waiting to hear from MSU admissions, but it's taking forever! It's been over 3 months, and when I called to check the status today they told me that their new computer system was making everything take a long time. They can't give me a time frame for when it'll be done, but they will make sure to try and hurry it along since I called.
So it's June, and I'm taking an online writing class through Lansing Community College, and I have no idea what I'll be doing in 3 months!
I feel like I'm in Limbo.
If I don't get accepted, then I need to find a better job. I have been working at my kids' school as a lunch monitor and the "Breakfast Lady". It's actually the best job I've ever had, but it doesn't pay all that much ;)
Oh, and I would like to major in Art History, and go into Art Restoration/Conservation. I know, there are no big museums of anything out here, but MSU is planning to build a new art building/museum, or I can fix people's antiques or something...
I don't know, I'm working on it :P